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Personal

Self indulgence at it's best. I succumb to my interests, and talk too much about them. You've been warned.

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Regrets

Days without alcohol/soft drinks: 2
Sit-ups: 18
Push-ups: 18

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We all have them. Some are the results of a night of drinking too much, others are felt by simply looking back and thinking “I should of done that when I had the chance. Instead here I am with a bad case of herpes and a fridge full of leftover spaghetti sauce”. For me a lot of it is the former, by the way; my fridge is fairly empty.

But I wanted to talk about what I feel is possibly the biggest regret I have; that I have an inability to keep in contact with people I know. This is both friends and family, sad to say. I just lack the motivation to make a phone call or send a text. I find it hard to get out and hang out with someone for the day. I have many friends but I just don’t see them, ever. It’s not for lack of wanting to, it’s just that I feel apathetic about everything. I really feel like I need to pull my finger out and do something.
Same goes for my family; I periodically get letters from my grandmother who lives out in Berri. Yet for years (I’d go so far as to say a decade) I have never sent her a letter back. Back then it was okay because I saw her every school holidays, but now I’m working and don’t have the time it’s become painfully obvious that I need to do so. I haven’t seen her for a couple of years and the only contact we have is via the very occasional phone call.
You could call this a letter to myself about the matter, or an apology to those who are included in the above group of people (Hi Craig, Denai, etc). I promise to try and catch up with you soon.

What are your biggest regrets, if you have any?

BEDS – It begins.

Days without alcohol/soft drinks: 1 (woo)
Sit-ups: 24
Push-ups: 15

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BEDS! You lie in them, you sleep in them, but today and for the rest of the month, it means something else!

What? No.

Blog Every Day in September is an idea I stole from Tikken, who did hers in August. What makes my doing it far more awesome is that my ______ is that of a comfortable place to sleep. A place of piece, safety, and the like. Where as hers isn’t actually anything. But I won’t hold that against her.

So every day you will be subjected to a random blog post about something I’m not quite sure of yet, but I’m sure you won’t be interested in. Regardless, I will be inflicting these on you, and I hope that in the 30 days of content, that you find SOMETHING of interest to maybe say, comment on?

To coincide with this and give the posts a semblance of consistency, I am also giving up on alcohol, soft drink and fast food for the entire month. To top that off, I am going to, yet again, try and get some form of regular exercise regime going. So far I’ve been trying to dedicate myself to doing at least 20 sit ups and 10 push ups a day, but sometimes I can find myself distracted. Also when I feel less tired I’ll be jogging now and again.
So each post for the day, I will be throwing at the top a simply tally saying how many days I’ve been without these essential items, and how many of what exercises I did that day. You can see today’s up already at the top of the post.

As a final note, you should know that finding something to write about every day is hard. While this is obvious, what is less obvious is that you could help by clicking on the button that reads “Suggestions?”, and spending 30 seconds telling me what you’d like to see my write about. Even if it’s dumb or retarded, it’s still awesome to get a new suggestion.

Fair dinkum uncertainty

Election time has come around again, and I have come to my realization that I actually know nothing¹ about current politics and affairs. I also know fuck all about our political history, but that’s not the point. My knowledge extends to knowing Labour MP Stephen Conroy is trying to censor our Internet, Julia Gillard is our awfully monotone Prime Minister, and Tony Abbott says “Fair dinkum” too often in a vain attempt to come across as a ‘true Aussie’.

I know barely anything about the policies of either of the main parties or even those of the minor parties. In fact, beyond the names of the leaders and those who occasionally end up being newsworthy, I don’t even know what the party is.

I would read the newspapers, but they only pick what would be newsworthy and don’t actually detail everything Not to mention that papers like The Advertiser are either bias or don’t tell the whole story; either way I just don’t feel such a traditional medium would cut it. Everyone in my family is incredibly bias, and with half the news I get coming from blogs, I can be sure that what I read there won’t be everything either. While there are bound to be sources that state the straight facts, I don’t see myself having the mental drive to read through it all.

It’s difficult to get the whole picture easily without following everything religiously, and I just don’t care enough to. At the same time though, I want to make the ‘right’ decision for myself, and without knowing the facts I can’t. It’s a bit of a downward spiral². It’s probably the wrong mentality to take when I spend multiple paragraphs complaining, but that’s how I work.

I don’t know who I’ll vote for, and I can see myself potentially just flipping a coin when I get to the booth. Despite the fact that I’ll attempt to read up on everything, I know that I’ll get distracted by a game of Alien Swarm which I’m going to be honest, is just way more fun and satisfying.

1. Shocking!
2. And now I want to listen to Nine Inch Nails.

I CAN JUGGLE.

Alright, I’m a month and a few days late on my learning a new skill each month idea, but allow me to explain; I was lazy. Too lazy to make a video. UNTIL NOW.

The lighting isn’t greatest, and my face looks retarded, but I can juggle! Not very well and not as good at this guy, but I can. And this month I’m getting lazy with my next choice of useless skill to learn. I am learning how to fold shirts perfectly in two seconds. That’s right; exciting stuff right here. This particular way of folding shirts is an interesting way to do it, and I want to start doing it. Because I can.

So that’s that done. I feel better.

Hammer Romance

My girlfriend decided to send me a message utilizing Hammer, the editor used for making maps in games.

 

The girl is awesome.

You never know who’s listening.

Today while dealing roulette, one of the Pit Bosses came up to me and helped chip up a little, to make my job easier. This is all normal, but the small talk caught me off guard:

“Oh hey, I read your blog the other day James.”
“Wait what? Uhh, which one?”
“Um, something skittles.”
“Oh yeah. What post?”
“The one about Infinite Fortune. I wasn’t the one who found it, one of the shifties did, and showed us.”
“Oh…what did he think?”

At this point I’m shitting myself. I wasn’t sure if we were allowed to write about work, even though it was positive there was always a chance they’d seen something they didn’t like. Not only that, but I’m not exactly proud of my writing, and it’s kind of embarrassing having my boss see it; it’s like someone stumbling upon a video of me failing at the guitar, or of me humping a milk carton. Oh wow, thank god they didn’t see that.

“He was just like ‘free advertising!’. I mean, it was all positive. He called us over to check it out and was all ‘Is that…’ and we just nodded and replied ‘Yeah, that’s one of our dealers.’”

Thank god. It’s going to be okay. The embarrassment remained, but at least I wasn’t going to be in trouble or anything.

“Oh ok. I wasn’t sure if we were allowed to write stuff like that, even though it wasn’t derogatory or anything.”
“Nah James, it was cool, don’t worry about it.”
“Guess I’ll have to watch what I write on here, in case I write something incriminating.”

He laughed, then left to go perform some other job. It’s kind of scary when you find out other people have read your stuff, in particular when those people happen to be your immediate superiors.

Needless to say, I’ll have to watch what I write on here from now on¹.

1. I won’t actually, I’ll probably say something stupid and get fired. But hopefully when that time comes it’ll be worth it!

Thankoooo

In 10 minutes, at 10:25pm, I’ll officially be 21. I got a lot more happy birthday’s than I expected, and thank you to everyone. There were so many on Facebook, and lets face it, going through them all will take awhile (I am slow), so instead, I thought I’d list you all here (minus family, of course), and call you faggots.

On Facebook:
Shani,  Maddie, Kirsty, Brendan, Zebby, Bettina, Melanie, Kayla, Paul, KASE, Denai, Vicki (I think?), Rachel, Dan, Britt’s Mum, Charlie, Ali, Brenton, Swapnil, Dinny, Darren, Derek, Craig.

On Twitter:
Aly, Monnie, Tim, Cassandra, Omegatron, Shaun, Ryan, CrazySpeak

Via SMS:
Mel (again), Charlie (again), Craig (again), Mark, Haleigh, Denai, Steph

Update- It seems I scored a blog post by Josh Nunn over at The Geekorium too

As well as Brittany and Courtney who were awesome enough to CALL me, and as of a few minutes ago Josh Nunn who actually made a dollar donation via the coke can in the corner. Thanks for the shout man.

You’re all Faggots.
(Thank you so much)

Obligatory birfdai post

Man, I cannot believe it’s been a whole year since my last birthday! I still remember writing this unnecessarily morbid post about the affair, and here we are again already!

My entire attitude about life has changed since writing that abysmal excuse for a post. I’m currently with a pretty young lass by the name of BITCHTITS, and have turned complete gamer nerd. As I write this, I have an iPhone game, Nintendo DS game (spoiler: It’s Pokemon SoulSilver) and a computer game all running at the same time.

People keep telling me this is the year I’ll suddenly mature. I’ll suddenly stop acting like a kid and start doing adult things like saving and commenting on the news. I need to stop being an idiot, playing games, being lazy, and anything else they decide is for kids.
While I understand that I’m going to need to start looking to the future more, I still like having fun. I like going geocaching, I like running around being an idiot. I have the most fun when I’m just dicking around with friends, sharing a pizza and watching a movie.

I’m meant to be a fully fledged adult now, but I’m going to be honest; I really don’t feel that way. I am happy.

A to-do list, of sorts

I have a rather bad habit of starting things and not finishing them, and this unfortunately extends to my gaming; I have multiple video games that I have yet to finish. The pile is slowly growing so I’m taking a page out of Doc_Swarley’s book, and listed the games I’m in the middle of so I know what to finish.

• Grand Theft Auto IV – It’s on my Xbox 360, and I don’t play so much on there as use it as a DVD player.
• Titan Quest – A certain Ali creature got me to buy it while it was on special for $2.50, but I haven’t gotten anywhere after finishing the first real quest.
• Bioshock – I’ve finished it and gotten the good ending, but I started playing a collaborative effort with Doc_Swarley in an attempt to get the evil ending.
• Spear Of Destiny Reloaded – A mod of the Wolfenstein 3D engine, and an amazing one at that.
• Trine – I haven’t really started it, but I was gifted it and will eventually get to playing it
• Torchlight – It was on special, DON’T JUDGE ME FOR NOT STARTING IT
• Age Of Empires 3 – The round presentation of the maps put me off a bit, but I’ll need to finish this again.
• S.T.A.L.K.E.R. Call Of Pripyat – I love S.T.A.L.K.E.R. and this installation in the series is amazing.
• Pokémon SoulSilver – FUCKYEAH.
• Fallout 3 – It’s such a big world, it’s going to take ages to finish this one.
• Oddworld: Abe’s Exoddus/Oddysee – The classic games that Doc_Swarley showcased her knowledge in…I haven’t gotten past the first level yet. On either of them.

Are there any games you haven’t finished yet, that you’ve slapped on the backburner? Join me in the quest to finish them?

Rejection

Today’s Questionable Content was a rather depressing one, featuring one of the characters getting rejected completely and utterly by the guy she’d been developing feelings for. While anyone who’d been reading this comic would of seen it coming a mile away, it’s still a rather tough scene to read.

The way he handled it was fair in his position. It was sudden, he’s drunk and no time to think. However, the topic at hand is about Marigold’s (the female) reaction to being rejected, and the rejection itself. Rejection is a tough thing to face when you don’t possess the ego of Saxton Hale, and is something I myself are quite fearful of.

He fears nothing.

I’ve always had trouble with girls because of this fear; rarely making any advance unless I was confident I wouldn’t get rejected. It’s something I’ve started to get over, but was a real hindrance on my social life.
As for being the rejecter, it’s a tough road for me. I can’t flat out reject someone even if I have completely decided that I’m not and will never be interested. I give roundabout answers, be vague, and never flat out say no to girls. I know the feeling of being rejected and don’t want to do that to someone. However that can backfire on me, and I’ve had situations where a girl has pretty much stalked me, even though I’d eventually made it clear that I was in no way ever going to go out with her.
Basically, I’ve learned that as much as rejection can hurt, it’s best to just be honest. Say no where no is applicable, but preferably say it nicely (unless she’s a total bitch, in which I suggest throwing in a punch to the face. Punches to the face are there to bolden the words you speak.). Being honest is the only way to come out on top, and if you say it correctly and don’t make a big deal of it, she’ll be okay too. Of course, finding the best way to say it is still something I have trouble with, but I’ve been successful once or twice, and even stayed on good terms with those involved.

TL;DR Rejection is a difficult beast to deal with, but honesty works better in the long run. Just be nice about it.

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